Post by Ananda on Oct 10, 2008 14:34:34 GMT -5
March 13, 1987
Dear diary,
It's a sad day. I'm writing to you because Pam can't do this anymore. I know she did, and I think I have to end her story. Because that's what you really are, Pam's story of life.
And her book will contain many empty pages after this one.
Yesterday….
It's very hard to me, but I know she wants this. The girls are all a sleep now. My mom came over the minute she heard about it...
It was terrible, the car… Nothing left of it. And that all by some drunk maniac. He had to stop, but he didn't… A big collapse, and it was over. They tried to save her at the hospital, but they couldn't…
And that man had just a little scratch on his arm… It's not fair…
It's a great loss to this world, she was the kind of woman… who could make… you happy when you felt said… just by being there. Her smile, her voice….
I can't go on anymore. It's too hard for me. When I write this down, I see her standing in this room, or sitting on this bed writing in this dairy. And I saw that a lot. And she looked so happy….
But now, she…she… In two days we will have her funeral. And you know what ? I have been sitting next to her coffin all day. They had to drag me away from there…. She looks so…so.. peaceful.
But I want her back, she was everything I ever dreamed of. And now… how will I have to continue… the girls…the house…
I'm happy nobody's here. I don't want the girls to see me cry. I don't want that… But I can't stop it…
It's over, it's all over.
Pam, I loved you, and I always will… You'll be in my heart… forever
I miss you already,
Danny
Dear diary,
It's a sad day. I'm writing to you because Pam can't do this anymore. I know she did, and I think I have to end her story. Because that's what you really are, Pam's story of life.
And her book will contain many empty pages after this one.
Yesterday….
It's very hard to me, but I know she wants this. The girls are all a sleep now. My mom came over the minute she heard about it...
It was terrible, the car… Nothing left of it. And that all by some drunk maniac. He had to stop, but he didn't… A big collapse, and it was over. They tried to save her at the hospital, but they couldn't…
And that man had just a little scratch on his arm… It's not fair…
It's a great loss to this world, she was the kind of woman… who could make… you happy when you felt said… just by being there. Her smile, her voice….
I can't go on anymore. It's too hard for me. When I write this down, I see her standing in this room, or sitting on this bed writing in this dairy. And I saw that a lot. And she looked so happy….
But now, she…she… In two days we will have her funeral. And you know what ? I have been sitting next to her coffin all day. They had to drag me away from there…. She looks so…so.. peaceful.
But I want her back, she was everything I ever dreamed of. And now… how will I have to continue… the girls…the house…
I'm happy nobody's here. I don't want the girls to see me cry. I don't want that… But I can't stop it…
It's over, it's all over.
Pam, I loved you, and I always will… You'll be in my heart… forever
I miss you already,
Danny